Alone

When you are around a group of people, you could see different personalities. When you are with your friends, you are happy knowing you could have someone to lean and cry on. You could forget even for a while all the problems and pains in our life. You can hide the sadness you feel inside. But then, when you are alone and you are all by yourself, the smile suddenly fades away and the sparkling eyes seem to be gone. Sometimes, we try hard to feel happy and glad but we can't take away the sadness, tears and hurt that we feel deep inside that at times make us burst into tears and feel empty.

I myself have my own problems and pains in life. Of course, I'm human. That's normal. When I'm in school and I'm with friends, I don't remember the things that trouble me. I just talk with them, laugh with them and do things with them. I'm really the serious type of person but I'm with the type of people who always laugh and that just gives me hope that I should laugh at life too. I laugh too, of course but not all the time. When I'm alone or I have no one to talk to, I feel lonely. I look around and see that there are many people around me. Ever felt that? When you are around a lot of people yet you feel so alone and lonely like you're the only person present in the place? That's really hard. I won't deny the fact that I also hide my sadness. I don't know why but I somehow feel sad when I'm just by myself. I guess life just isn't easy for me. At home, in school, so many tough times. I have my rough days going on. I also find myself thinking, staring at the ceiling, figuring out what I could do to lessen my burdens. It's hard to think. That's what I knew. It could take you hours, then days, maybe even weeks, but could still turn into months. Funny, right? Sometimes, I also laugh at myself. I can give advices, solutions to my friends' problems (except financially) and yet I can't find a way to figure out my own. Many people can attest to that. Many have experienced that.

I guess being alone also has its advantage. That would be the time where in you can think and try to unknit all the complexities of your life. You would learn to be somehow responsible of your life and be independent. You would be able to realize that you should be happy and learn to solve your problems one by one. You can go through life step by step. It maybe really hard that sometimes makes you think to give up. Remember that God have us a chance to live in this incomparable world. We have to enjoy life and we can do so by living it the way he wants us to do. We could find solutions, maybe not from our own minds but from others who care for us and love us.