A year has passed...

Over the year, many things had happened and changed in my life. Besides the fact that I grew older by age, I also did by experience. I entered the stage in my life where I accidentally met love. Of course, as expected not true love. My first real, puppy love. As all we know, not all love lasts. I guess he was one of those people who made me be a better person and made me more mature as an adolescent. I never thought he would just pass by. At one point in my life, I even thought he was the guy for me. Real crazy, right? Well, that's what I was. I don't know but he was one of those people who really painted a beautiful color in my life. I really didn't have much moments with him but then, all I could remember was how great it felt. I still kind of remember those sweet text messages we exchange which I now prove to be unreliable. On those few months I've known him, I had this feeling that I felt was more than a simple crush or admiration. I was not sure then. I just found myself introduced to the world of love. Of course, love certainly is not easy. Two days before VALENTINE'S DAY, I finally had the courage to tell him what I felt for him. It was not easy. Honestly speaking, I expected that I would have the best valentines I have. I told him and my heart was just so loud and I was so afraid and maybe excited too of what will be his reply. Then, I heard one of the most painful words. He already fell for someone else. It was really hard to accept and face the pain of those heart-stabbing words on my cellphone. That night, I cried and cried, trying to let that heavy feeling be at least a little lighter. I tried to love him with all the little pieces but then again he broke it into tinier ones.

The year that has been was tough and yet I proved that I am tougher. It has been one year and I still remember those moments in my life. Of course, who would ever forget their first heartache. Only those with amnesia, I guess. Anyway,I can already afford a smile when g over again those times. It was truly heartbreaking but honestly, I would never exchange it for the world. Not because I still love the guy, but I guess because I loved the guy truly. Right now, I don't know what to say anymore. I just really want to reach the 500 words. So, to continue, it wasn't easy again to move on and easily forget the guy. It took me almost a year!(laughs) I still hoped that there was still him and me until I finally set my mind to move on and try to find some one more deserving than him. Maybe I already found the guy but it's difficult, again. Why? It's just so. Some people understand that.