Regrets...

It's hard to look at the person you like or probably even someone you love and see him staring at somebody else. It's hard to realize that you let him slip away and there's no turning back. I realized that now and somehow, I regretted some things in the past. I never realized that it would be like this right now, that I would like him. I never thought that I would stare at him the way I do, the way I never did before. I never thought I would feel so happy just seeing him. I never thought he would be the person who can print a smile and glow on my face. The one who can just make my heart skip a beat.

Everything changed since the first time I felt what we call love. I never thought I can be a happy me again. I never even expected. Classes opened and I began to want to be happy. Even without a guy in my life. Who said a girl can't do that? Anyway, I just was happy, trying to heal and start all over again. At first, I really never thought about him. Then, he begins to appear on my head and I start thinking about him. I tried not to entertain the feeling, but I guess it just wasn't effective. So I tried again my luck. We became friends. I mean we are friends, but we don't talk. We greeted. Just simple Hi's and Hellos but communication is important for friends right? So that was it. Then for a time, we weren't talking again. I didn't know why actually, but that's what happened. We talk. We don't. We talk. We don't. It's kind of funny actually, thinking about it. Just this new year, when classes resumed from break, we talk. We greet, just like friends. Then, we don't. I started to ask myself if what should I do and if what I'm feeling is right but sadly, I can't answer them. So I then ran to my friends for advice. They told me the pro's and con's of the situation. I told them about how I felt towards the situation too. Then, I began to cry. I mean really cry. For a while, I stopped. One of my friends told me to cry my heart out so I would feel, at least, a little better. Then I told her that "I won't hold on to him." and I began crying hard. I don't know why I did but I just felt so bad saying those words. The bell rang for classes which stopped me from my heavy drama. Another day came and surprisingly, I ran by him and I didn't know how I felt. It was just so heavy and there's this really big lump from my heart to my throat that disabled me from talking. "Gee, I hope I don't run by him again.", I said to myself. I know he likes a girl and I'm happy for him, honestly. He deserves to be happy and I don't want to be a reason to break somebody's heart, that's why I step aside.

Regretful. Yes, that's how I feel. I wasn't able to notice someone until he was gone. He slipped out from my hands. I regretted when I didn't make use of the time given to me and didn't give much importance to a person who means to me. Everyone should learn this lesson. Appreciate the people around you, especially those who care for you. You may not know it but the person beside you might be the person who can give you happiness and love. He/She might just be there sitting at the corners, looking at you, even without you knowing it.
Remember: REGRETS COME AT THE END OF THE SHOW. .=)